Too Much Noise

Tuesday are days where I don’t have to leave the house until much later in the day.

It’s a day for me to get “everything” done…or nothing.

I found myself overwhelmed this morning and paralyzed by all the things I “should” do and instead of getting into action, I just mindlessly scrolled for way longer than I care to admit.

Anyone else?

I don’t know why wedding dress try-ons or weird makeup before and afters totally capture my attention, but they do. And don’t get me started on chicken videos and some amazing coops that are out there. I’ve got serious coop envy going on right now. Wallpaper inside a coop! What?!?!

See? That’s what happens to me.

Fortunately God snapped me out of it and told me to take Indie for our walk in the back.

There is a little spot on our land that I just love. You can’t see it from the house, but it is a small spot that feels like you are totally away from it all and a little slice of heaven. I loved it the moment I saw it.

Hated the house…loved the land.

It was back here this morning when I felt God’s presence so strongly. In fact, the words, “Oh, there you are!” came out of my mouth with total surprise. Just a warm hug to say “I’ve missed you.”

I stopped right then and just sat and realized how much I’ve been going lately. It’s definitely been a hamster on a wheel sort of season…lots of movement, no traction.

And I heard Him tell me, “There’s too much noise.”

But it’s not the noise you’re probably thinking.

Yes my kids add to it, but that wasn’t what God was talking about.

My husband gave me airpods a few years back, and while they have been my most used gift, looking back, they have also been the worst thing for me.

There is constantly something going into my ear. Maybe it’s a work call with a training or a podcast about personal development and growth, but more than likely, I’m probably listening to someone talking about politics or current events. I seriously love that stuff and can’t get enough of it. Okay…maybe it’s an addiction…don’t judge.

Whether it is good or useful or not isn’t the point though.

The point is, it distracts me. My phone distracts me. My brain doesn’t rest or listen to what is actually important and the phone keeps me from being present and in the moment with those around me. You know? The little humans whose noises actually matter.

So I got up from my spot a little sad at the thought of putting my phone and airpods away and asked God to help me serve my family better, my clients better, and my friends better.

This is going to be hard, but I don’t doubt it’s what is best for me. Just another area where God is doing a work in my life and remodeling my heart. I still have to use them both, but I want to be more intentional with them.

And on the flip side, how much more can I be hearing from God if all of that other noise is removed? I mean…imagine what you could hear if you turned off all the extra noise in your life. It’d be pretty amazing, wouldn’t it? I guess we’re about to find out!