Dang it!

Sunrise on a new day at the farm(ish)

“Dang it! I’m doing it again! God is telling me to do something and I’m doing it again. Dang it!”

My exact words to a friend when asked about something I had mentioned to her a few weeks ago about where I thought God was leading my family.

We both just laughed because we get it.

If God was saying, “Cathleen, I want you to go on a cruise with just your husband.” I’d probably jump right on it.

“God said!!!” Right?

But when it is not something I am super comfortable with or I see hurdles, I am slooooooooow to get on board.

I just wrote about this on Let Go and that’s why I laughed out loud at myself when I realized I was doing it again.

God put something on both my husband and my heart a few months ago, but neither of us gave it much attention. But it hasn’t gone away.

In fact…it has grown.

Justin mentioned praying and fasting about it and I thought that sounded good, but honestly, fasting is soooo hard for me. I hate not being able to eat when I want what I want. (Y’all, I am so comfortable in my comfortableness. It’s a little embarrassing!)

Fast forward a few weeks and I came back to Justin saying we should do it. I was ready. Let’s set a day to fast and pray for an answer.

He did not say what I thought he was going to say…“I mean, we can, but why do we need to pray and fast when we already know the answer?”

Dang it, Justin!

But at the same time…Touche´ honey, Touche´.

He’s so right, but as I’ve mentioned before, I like to ask a million questions, look at calendars, run cost analysis, run risk-reward comparisons, make pros and cons lists. You know, over-analyze the crud out of it.

And God’s saying, “Cathleen. Sweet sweet girl. Isn’t this what we just went through? Didn’t we just go through this and you saw that my way is good? How long do you need to drag your feet and over think this before you just trust me and do it?”

Dang it God!

Once again, you’re right.

So I guess there is a change coming for the Collett Crew…

Y’all…I, and my whole family, will need your prayers. I don’t doubt God’s plans, but I do wonder how in the world we’re going to make it happen, what it will look like, or where it will lead us, but that’s okay. We’ll just take the next right step in the direction God is leading us and trust it is taking us right where He wants us.

This is hard for a person like me who likes to be in control, but what great practice in letting go and stepping out in faith.

And I do believe that this type of faith leads all of us to exactly where we are suppose to be, with the people we’re suppose to be with, at just the time we’re suppose to be there.

Pretty amazing how God lines it all up, isnt’ it?