Healing

Lord my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me. Psalm 30:2

It’s Winterim at my kids’ school and that means a break from school work and a whole week learning about different professions, finances, and other related life skills.

As my oldest and I chatted before bed, she confidently talked about what she wanted to be when she grew up.

My heart pounded as I listened to my not-so-little girl anymore dream about a future and all the possibilities that await her. She is so different from me as a child. So much more open, self-aware, and willing to share her heart and her mind.

And then she asked, “Mom, what did you want to be when you grew up?”

The little girl in me came to life remembering how I used to dream. Like her, I wanted to be a vet. Oh how I loved animals and was always so excited when we would randomly find a stray and get to keep it for a few days. But then I found out you had to help animals injured and in pain and my young heart couldn’t handle that. So there went that idea.

But then I remembered my next and longer heart’s yearning: to be a counselor.

It’s funny how we can forget things that were once so pressing. Or how life can get in the way of dreams and sidetrack you

It was in the next moment when I answered the question of “why?” that I realized how much it tied in to the word God gave me for 2025.

Healing.

To be honest, I wasn’t really sure what to make of it when God whispered it into my spirit.

Do I need healing? Is there something broken I don’t know about? Am I going to get sick? Is someone I love going to need healing? What does it mean???

After having a mini freak out, that really only lasted a brief moment, I remember what happened near the end of 2024.

When asked to do some heart work, some wounds from childhood surfaced.

I thought these had been dealt with, but apparently there is still tenderness in those areas. Seems the wounds scarred over but never fully healed.

So maybe God is saying it’s time and let’s address those? Let’s heal the childhood hurts I carried into adulthood.

Or maybe it is a physical healing that I am not aware of needing yet? If so, I know it will be a healing only God can perform.

Scary thought? Yeah, a little bit.

Or maybe it’s not about me being healed but the gift of healing?

Okay, I am a little embarrassed to say this, but I have always thought that was the coolest spiritual gift around and would be floored to be able to heal people in Jesus’ name. Can you imagine???

Sidenote, I think my old co group thought I was brown-nosing when asked during an ice breaker what superpower we’d want. I said healing without skipping a beat or waiting my turn. Not the ability to fly or be invisible or teleport, but to heal.

They chuckled, thinking maybe I misunderstood the question, but I hadn’t. I meant it. And I’d answer it the same way today (maybe waiting for my turn this time).

I’ll take a supernatural gifting of the Holy Spirit over any superpower any day.

Heal me, Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise. Jeremiah 17:14

To be able to heal someone with a word or a touch from God, whether its physical or emotional…there are no words.

And that brings me back to the conversation with my oldest.

Why did I want to become a counselor?

Because as a little girl, I had the desire to walk alongside hurting people and help them. My heart broke for those suffering and I wondered how I could support them. I wanted them to be seen and heard. To help them process their thoughts and their emotions. I wanted to help them heal.

So as I am saying this to my oldest, I catch my breath as it dawns on me that God put this passion on my heart even as a young girl and it’s actually never gone away. It’s still there to this day, but it’s been pushed down and covered up. Belittled and shamed.

He’s reawakening it.

So maybe that’s what this word for 2025 is all about?

Healing that inner little girl, acknowledging the desires God put in her heart, and helping others heal too.

Acknowledging the desires He has put on my childrens’ hearts.

I don’t know what it means, but I know whatever healing comes and in whatever form, it is for God’s glory.

And can I just say how much I love the practice of writing? None of this occurred to me before sitting down and writing and I’ve been thinking on this word healing since before the new year. It’s incredible what can be unlocked when I am obedient and sit down and just start writing.

So thank you God for that.

Who knows if I am even remotely on the right track, but in practicing this, I am opening myself up to even that possibility that hadn’t even occurred to me prior and isn’t that how God gets our attention sometimes?

Whatever else 2025 may hold, I will be open to the healing God has intended for me this year and anxiously await to be able to share it.

Praying you and your family, your loved ones, experience the healing needed in your lives this year. Whether it is a physical healing, unforgiveness, trauma, church hurt, or any other tender place in your life. I pray that God makes it whole and healthy again.